if I didn’t had work, today would of been a stay in bed and do nothing day.
my birthdays never plan out as planned, that’s why I don’t really like them much. rather remembering the good moments the bad just keeps replaying in head. not just yesterday but the previous years too.
it’s not even that big of a deal but I just feel so down.
a mix of fustration, anger, and disappointment in myself.
I think I’m just going to eat my riceballs in peace, take a shower, and go to bed
sorry guys, I feel like I failed yesterday as a host. and those who had to pay more than they’re suppose to, I feel even worst